dirt
When I was fifteen, a friend of mine showed me a half-finished poem she'd written and asked for my help turning it into a song. I'd never written a (good) song before, but I came up with a melody and helped write the second verse, and *poof* we had a (pretty dang good) song on our hands! Dirt is a song about depression. It's about feeling gross and tired and helpless. But it's also about surviving. It's about things being as bad as they get and still choosing to fight and to work. I co-wrote it before I even considered myself a songwriter and yet! It’s the first track off my 2021 debut album.
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we all grow and we all die
and i think i’m gonna be buried alive
lungs filled with dirt my veins ain’t got no air
but i ain’t never gonna make it out alive
what does it mean to be stuck here
too tired to live and too scared to die
maybe every day is a small death
don’t know if i’ll make it out alive
maybe they’ll bury me
in my bedsheets and dirty dishes
maybe time’s wasted
seeds frosted
gemination unkempt
untimely displacement
roots frozen
my body lost in a moldy stagnation
but goddamn it
i’ll spit dirt and dig
veins blossom and braid
twisted and unattainable
bones gnarled into branches
heart hidden from the eye
maybe they’ll bury me
in my bedsheets and dirty dishes
maybe time’s wasted
seeds frosted
gemination unkempt
untimely displacement
root’s frozen
my body lost in a moldy stagnation
but goddamn it
i’ll spit dirt and dig
oh
oh
oh
maybe they’ll bury me
in my bedsheets and dirty dishes
maybe time’s wasted
seeds frosted
gemination unkempt
untimely displacement
root’s frozen
my body lost in a moldy stagnation
but goddamn it
i’ll spit dirt and dig
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Credits
Mirabai Kukathas - lyrics, melody, vocals
Zora Seboulisa - lyrics
Zoser Dunbar - acoustic guitar
Grafton Downs - bass
Olivia Green - drums
Matt "Sabyu" Sablan - keys, production
Betsy Siegel - album cover art
dirt at westlake 2021
dirt at SoundOff! 2020